What Day Is It?

As day 2 in Houston comes to a close, I sit here, going through my notebook, trying to figure out what is the next move. I can't even remember what day it is, how long we've been here or what needs to get done now. I take notes when the doctors are in. I try and write down things they tell me I will need to do in the future with Kendall. Today, the doctors were telling us about the classes we need to take to be able to clean the pic line that is connected to Kendall. About how we needed to make sure something is flushed out and something is changed regularly. About how much we will have to do for this thing and how we need to handle that thing. I'm hurriedly making chicken scratch in one section of the notebook for care and then in the hospital personnel section when we meet a new nurse or doctor. All I could think is that I'm not even the patient and I have to do all of this. I cannot even begin to think how Kendall must feel. I want to take away her pain so much and I can't. So I look at Kendall to try and offer a smile of encouragement or to tell her that I love her and she looks so relaxed and comfortable like none of this is bothering her. The strength that she must have to take all this in is unbelieveable. I need to be taking lessons from her.......

.....So the doctors do more tests, more blood work and have even done more MRI's. They told us today that all the final test results should be in late tomorrow or Thursday morning. They will tell us what type exactly of Leukemia she has and how they are going to treat it. They also said that she could possibly make it to outpatient status in a few weeks. Outpatient status means we still have to be in Houston but she will not have to be admitted in the hospital. We will have to bring her in for daily treatments and doctors appointments. This could all last up to 4 to 6 weeks if everything goes well. All of this, of course, could change tomorrow and it could be that we have to be here for 6 months. It's Whatever it is cause I'm here for the long haul. We are staying in a motel right now, well I mean our stuff is there, but we are looking for something for an extended stay. The social services department has been wonderful meeting with us and helping us get adjusted. We have even meet some other people in the hospital and they have told us about their expierences living with Leukemia. Some of their expierences have been amazing while some of them have been stuggling for a year. I then began to wonder what kind of expierence ours is going to be with Kendall. If I know Kendall, it is going to be amazing because fighting for something has always been right up her alley. All I can say is watch out Leukemia, here comes Kendall.

They have been giving Kendall some chemo pills to help with her white blood count so they don't get too high. She says that she is losing her taste buds, nothing taste right anymore. Then she really became mad and said she was going to hurt someone if she wasn't able to taste Sumo's anymore. Sumo's is her and Chase's favorite place to eat. I swear I think they could eat there about every night. ...
......Kendall went to the beauty shop today with the intention of getting a hair cut. They have told her that she will probably lose it. I, of course, was against it and want her to wait. They closed at 5:00pm and it was about 4:20 when we went down. I was pushing her in the whell chair and told her I was going to push it real fast but instead, I took as much time as I could. I was even going to purposely get lost on the way down so She couldn't get it cut. Little did I know that the beauty shop was staring us in the face when we stepped out of the elevator. So much for that idea. However, the lady working said it was too close to closing time and she wouldn't have time to do all of that. So Kendall settled for a wash instead, but told she would be back. That gives me a little time to think up of another excuse. ....
.....I have been taking pictures and wanted to have some of them posted by now but I left the usb cable in the luggage that we weren't allowed to bring. I should hope to have some up by thursday so B.O.L.O for them. ...
....Tammy was alot better today as we discussed the "Kendall journey". I know she's worried about Kendall, Dylan, Whitney Chad and Karsyn, Bragan and Brett, her family and friends, her job, our neighbors and a dozen other things that I see in her face. I see the pain in her as well and am trying so hard to take her pain away . ...Tammy, I know you have a hard time reading these post without crying so I want to tell you that I love you, I support you, honor and cherish you.. We will make it through this and be laughing about all of this several months from now as we take Kendall HOME!!!! She will probably force us to let her drive home so she can get their faster and honestly, that will be ok with me. I will gladly pay for a speeding ticket if she gets one....

.....I came across this scripture while looking for inspirational bible verses that I would like to share:
Proverbs 16:9 In their hearts human beings plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.

God does have a plan for Kendall, this might not have been what Kendall has planned for but I trully believe that there is a plan and that it is in Gods hand. He is holding her hand and I have no doubt that Kendall will follow......